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bryanferryfan
10-22-2015, 10:47 PM
Let me begin by saying that I am fascinated with shemales! I AM IN LOVE WITH SHEMALES! How did this love affair begin? For me it started back in 1984 when I saw a shemale magazine lying on my high school campus. Someone left it behind or it fell out of a bookbag. That image of a redheaded shemale left an impression on me that I will never forget. Initially, I was slightly shocked because I had never seen a magazine like that before. Then my shock turned into curiosity.

Fast forward to 1987 and I'm in my local video store. I muster up the courage to browse the ADULT SECTION. I see the standard XXX porn. Then I stumble upon black pornstars JEANNIE PEPPER, ANGEL KELLY, NINA DEPONCA, PURPLE PASSION, SAHARA and others. I nervously grab the boxes that are on display and view the back covers. I scan the images vigorously til the point of erection. I then take what seems to be hours deciding on which video to rent. I make a decision and grab a movie that has an "actor" dressed up like Dracula. Feeling that I made a really wise choice, I proceed to the counter and plop down the box. The clerk says, " I see you like the long pornos". I nervously shake my head in agreement as he retrieves the videocassette. I pay my rental fee and head on home.

That evening I slide the tape in the VCR and press play. I see the title card and prepare for a two hour jack-off session. To my chagrin its a damn softcore European film in subtitles. I was clearly disappointed in my choice. The movie wasn't at all titilating as I thought it was. A couple of days pass and I'm returning the movie and this time, with more confidence, I enter the adult section of the store and begin another search for real porn. Row after row same thing...couples posing on the cover with the crazy 80's graphics we all know and love.

Then I finally get to the back row of the adult vids when I come across something that peaks my interest. Something very familiar leers out at me. I bend down to get a closer look and it's a SHEMALE VIDEO. I start to tremble because I don't want to caught with it in my hands and have a customer percieve me as gay. I look around to see if there is anyone in sight and NO ONE is in the adult section with me. I see the cover and look for a name, a title, it reads: SULKA'S NIGHTCLUB. I turn the box over and I don't see any kind of action just DRAG QUEEN'S posing with their clothes on. I'm determined to rent it. At that point my eagerness to see this vid brings back flashes of the shemale I saw on the magazine. I think to myself, "How am I gonna present this vid to the clerk without them giving me that look. So I decide to rent an additional video as well. It had to be something popular and also kind of boost my courage enough to really rent the Sulka video.

I pick up something like Top Gun or something like it and head to the counter. I wisely engage the clerk with idle chit chat as a kind of shield or distraction from the fact that I was renting a shemale movie. The chit chat worked and I'm out the door.

Later that night I slide the video in and I'm instantly intrigued and mortified. Why? Because I had never seen that kind of sex. I was clearly aroused but extremely guilt ridden. I, up until that point, was attracted to females. Now, my dick was instantly hard and throbbing. I watched every scene, every orgasm. I was officially hooked.

I think this is a fine time to continue this another time.

kanguru
10-23-2015, 02:06 PM
I'm lucky I had the entire internet at my disposal when I found out about TS women. Exploring this fetish in the comfort of my bedroom as a 16 yr old really helped me dive deeper into it. I couldn't imagine renting a DVD with huge black shemale cock all over the cover. I don't think I'd find the hassle worth it.. I'm the type of guy that won't even buy lube at the grocery store unless there's self-checkout available lol.

I was into tgirls, at least the idea of it first flashed in my head, back when I was 10. I didn't have any access to porn, but those talk shows where you gotta guess the gender of the guest? Oh man, they intrigued the fuck out of me. When I was so sure "Oh, that's a chick!" then they said it was a dude, I got HARD. I didn't know how to process that feeling at the time, so I suppressed it. I had just started masturbating at that age, so I tried to push myself to wank to actual women. I didn't come back around to tgirls until I was 16, but that time, I really just dove in.

I always think how much more of a perv I'd be if I had the internet at such a young age like kids today do. I didn't have Google Images to look up tgirls, but I know I would have been all over it when I was 10 lmao. I kinda question my sexuality sometimes when I sit back to think about it. Not if I'm "gay" or "straight" but if tgirls are just what I LIKE in general. I think if I was able to explore this earlier in life, I'd probably be a different person right now. Even now, when I think of the ideal woman, she has a penis. I could be watching mainstream straight porn and say "Man, I wish she had a 10 inch dick of her own" no matter how good it is.

Still, I love this journey of discovery I've been on with tgirls for 19 yrs now. Out of all the porn I watch, it's definitely the most reflective. Seeing a beautiful brazilian shemale bust a big load kind of changes how you look at what you want out of your sex life lol.

Larryp
10-23-2015, 02:52 PM
LOL. Great stories....funny as well. I'm sure many of us have had similar experiences or feelings.
Not exactly sure when, where, why I first got exposed to trans-sexuals...but the attraction was immediate. I'm beyond caring what people may think of my attraction. I consider myself bisexual--I'm attracted to both men and women and enjoy sex with both.
I've had one long term relationship with a black trans woman who was completely passable, living her life as a woman. The experience was very positive, a great relationship...and the sex the best I've ever had. I'm forever sorry that "I let her get away"--actually she moved away to take another job in another part of the country.
Anyway....I just love TS women. Just so damn sexy......nothing like it.......

chubbychaser
10-26-2015, 06:21 PM
My fav era of porn was the 90's lol. Most the ones im looking for are out of print now though. So the shit is damn near impossible to find. Wish i never threw them away :(

bryanferryfan
04-13-2016, 08:58 PM
the next episode cumming soon