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[kittymatthews]

you're just like daryl...you 2 like attention.........please answer this for me.........tell me how is anyone of these videos gonna help anyone in their life??? and if you feel the way you feel, why delete the other vid??? thats like me wearing a chicago bulls jersey to a knick game and when i get bad feedback..i throw my chicago bulls jersey away. i still like the fukkin bulls.lol SMH
have you traveled as a kid??(please say no, cause ya never mentioned that in ya vids)...i dont know how many people clowned you back in the days...but you let what .000000000000010% did to you...determine what our whole race is about.lmao

and you're basically internet gangsterin...internet frauding.....cause answer this, and im out.........would you go up to 500 blk people and recite every word you said in that video..i mean, you're talkin to us right?.............of course you're gonna say yes.lol

AND WHY WOULD I BE ON A BLACK TRANSSEXUAL FORUM IF I HATED BLACK PEOPLE. YA'LL DUMB.
HAHAHHA

See, like most black people who get crazy over my videos, you probably just read the title and didn't watch the video.

I deleted the videos because I realized how unhelpful they were (which i said in my last post but i know how hard it is to read so i'll repeat). I dont desire attention. DARYL posted them here, not me. My videos dont go anywhere further than youtube.

If you watched the video i just posted (which i know you didn't, but I know how hard it is to to click play and listen so I'll repeat) I do believe that I misjudge african americans based on the select few that attack me (which BTW, you are definitely not helping me in changing my views). It is a fact that in my life, the only attackers of my transition and accusers of delusion have been black. That is a fact. I have never been attacked by anyone of any other race. I'm sure it's bound to happen, but I can't help it if my lack of exposure to african americans + the ignorant ones I've met = a slanted view of african americans as a whole. I still feel the way I feel in the video (but, as I know you didn't watch the video let me reiterate, I DO NOT HATE BLACK PEOPLE), but I can back away from the situation and realize that it's unhelpful.


Look, you guys can hate me or think I'm an uncle tom or whatever, but if you actually gave two flying fucks, you'd realize that my feelings towards african americans are all based on the fact that I have always wanted to reach out and be a part o the black community, but because of what I believe in, how I feel about my race and how it defines me, how I walk and how I talk, I have faced nothing but push away and criticism. So it's natural for me to feel the way I do about african americans based on my experience. But AS I'VE SAID BEFORE, i can acknowledge that I am ignorant. Yelling at me and accusing me of loving the white man and blah blah blah blah blah is only reinforcing the negative attitude and perception i have on african americans as a whole. I DO unfairly judge black people, but I'm working on that. I do not hate myself, i love myself, there isn't an ounce of self hatred in my body, quite the opposite.


Like I said, feel the way you feel about me. I dont care. I think i made that really clear in my video

[da_man2156]

i hear that hot shyt. and i am totally 100% not offended about anything you said...and im most def not tryin to change how you feel...cause to me....you are a fraud...for the one year i took up psychology in college, i learned a few things about body movements....and im a good listener. and it clearly shows that you're a superstar in ya camera's eyes, cause you put on a show everytime.
but who am i?? maybe im one of those types that clowned people when i was younger...but im in my 30's and dont even remember the things i said to clown someone..you know why...i was a silly lil KID. obviously you do care...cause you mentioned ya growing up and being picked on in ya vids(so seeee, i did watch ya vids lol)


buy uuuhhhh hey, keep it movin how you movin...no drama over on this side!

[kittymatthews]

Yep I'm a fraud.

Comments like that make me make videos entiled "I hate niggers". Just saying. If you can't accept me for doing me, dont expect me to accept you for doing you. Just saying.


BTW, on the subject of being a fraud
WHAT THE FUCK IS SO FAKE ABOUT ME??


Please tell me. I'd LOVE to hear it. Watch my channel, it's all bout being transparent. lol. Whatever. This is why me and black people dont get along. And TO THINk i was comming on here to post new photos of myself. Ugh. You guys have it so fucked up I'm not even going to start.I dont come to this forum to be messy, people attack me and it gets messy. So if we're gonna comment on how this forum is starting to be immature, let's call a spade a spade.

[da_man2156]

no need dear....you'll be aiight!

[kittymatthews]

no need dear....you'll be aiight!

No no, tell me. I wanna hear your busted ass reason as to why I"m a "fraud". PLEASE. There is absolutely nothing about me that is fake hun. Nothing.

NOTHING.

So really, educate me. Give me your evaluation. No seriously, i would love to hear it. Really.

I mean what the fuck do i have to do. I remove my unhelpful videos, I explain my feelings, i realize that I was wrong and you STILL wanna sit there and call me a fraud. You are so fucking off.


So now, give me your psychological evaluation. PLEASE. i beg. Obviously i'm a dumb ass little kid who doesn't no better. So come on daddy, tell me what you gotta say. Spit some knowledge at me, muh brutha

[da_man2156]

its not that serious...just like being clowned as a kid and being verbally attacked as a grown up is not that serious when you're handling ya business...you movin thru this world the way you wanna move thru it.........thats all that matters

[kittymatthews]

its not that serious...just like being clowned as a kid and being verbally attacked as a grown up is not that serious when you're handling ya business...you movin thru this world the way you wanna move thru it.........thats all that matters

So that's how I"m a fraud? Interesting. Well I'm glad you answered my question in a clear and concise manner.

Problem is that some people always have something to say about me when I"m "handlin' my business". And those people 9.9999 time out of 10 are black.

[da_man2156]

and what i mean by fraud is exactly what i said in my first post.....if you post this type of talk online, but wouldn't walk up the the same amount of viewers ya vids has...in person and say it to there faces just cause you wanna(just like ya vids)...thats some type of fraud.....oh i get it....you one of those online venters

and are you into anything to try to better your race?? or do you think these lil vids is doing the job? are you helping online?? or in ya real life??

[kittymatthews]

I absolutely would and have in the past. If you came up to me and tried to tell me how to live my life, I would FOR SURE tell you how you're acting like a typical nigger.

The very same could be said about the people that leave transphobic comments on my videos and send me emails telling me just how much they hate the fact that I'm trans.


See, I am ME. I can only do things for myself. My way of "bettering" the black race is to realize and recognize the cogs we're falling into that were originally created by the white man. The hypersexualization of black women and the lack of education in black men. Both popular stereotype originally taught to us by the white man. I believe in living in the world now as it is. I dont believe in defining yourself by your race. You can still have pride in your race and appreciate your race without being a slave to your race. And building expectations for other members of your race is NOT progress.

In my opinion, bettering my race would be waking up and realizing that we are individuals and not part of this overly marginalized group of people. just because I'm black doesn't mean that i have to conduct myself in a certain way. Just because I'm black doesn't mean that I have to speak within a certain dialect or enjoy certain things within our own culture.

You try to assign me with acting as if i am a different race, but that isn't anywhere near true. I act the way I act and that is who I am. I am not putting on a facade or pretending to be something I am not. I am who I am and I do not pretend or act as if i am something other that what I am. But see, a lot of black people I've met seem to believe that's how I am. That i am lying to myself and to everyone around me because of the way i talk or things I'm interested in. It is so petty to tell me that I "act white" when being white isn't something I desire to be- at all. It is so petty to try to paint me as a fraud because I don't assign myself to stereotypes.

My main issue with the black community is the many variations of self hate. This feeling that because I'm doing something they don't agree with, I'm wrong or I'm delusional or I'm trying to act like something I'm not. Why is it that it seems like every other race gets to have variations in culture except for the black race.

There's a reason why so many black people upload videos expressing negative feelings towards their own race. And if you watch every single one of them, it's the same thing. PUSH back from black people because they don't act or conduct themselves in a predictable manner. My feelings are not unique to me. My feelings can be echoed by several within the black community. And that should tell you that what I say isn't far from reality.

And i removed my videos because they are not helpful in progress (I've said that several times).

[da_man2156]

nooooooo i didnt say if someone came to you with some non-sense...just like one day you woke up and decided to make a vid just cause...do you wake up and say, ima find some black people today and tell them how i feel.......i dont think ya would...and not too many people does that!



but hey....like i said, continue moving the way you moving...its no thaaaaang to me!


enjoy ya sunday!